I am getting ready to run in the LA Marathon this weekend to support Child SHARE. The weather report is not great, but I'm going to try and get through it anyway.
I try to keep the myth of the negative emails and letters alive. I really don't get very many of them. The vast majority of messages I receive are very positive reflections on what God is doing in and through the church. But Thursday I received the following anonymous letter sitting on my desk at the church. Every pastor in the universe gets these kinds of letters and then has to decide what to do with them, because they truly are cowardly in nature. These kinds of letters give people the chance to unload on you without giving you a chance to respond. As I sat down to blog this morning I thought, "Hey, I can respond here." Chances are good that the person who wrote the letter will not read this, but it does give me an opportunity to reflect on my own priorities in ministry. It also gives me a chance to address similar questions other people might have even though they would never dream of writing this kind of letter. (And it's a lot cheaper than therapy).
So I thought I would try and respond here. The letter in its entirety is posted below in italics. (Sorry for its length). My response and reflections come after the letter.
March 14, 2012
Dear Dr. Scott Daniels,
May I voice my opinion at the disappointment I feel in some of our pastoral staff, especially pertaining to this coming weekend?
I am very disappointed to learn that:
1. You will be absent from the pulpit this Sunday due to your involvement in the fundraiser marathon for Child Share. Even though it is a great ministry and one of which we support as a church, you, of all the staff, need to be doing the job you are being paid for, being in the pulpit, instead of running in a marathon on a Sunday morning. What does this say to our people? Supporting an "outside" ministry is more important than supporting our own ministry - on a Sunday morning, the main time in the week when we all come together for teaching and fellowship? If Child Share is a Christian organization, I'm suprised that they would set an event that would take people away from going to and serving their church on a Sunday morning. I'd think they'd plan it for a "non-church" day. If others want to participate in the acutal running, that is their choice. But for you, you are now not even a true full-time pastor anymore since you give much of your time to your other position at APU now and are not even in the office and/or on campus much of the week. And then it seems like you're gone a lot on trips attending conferences or serving on various boards that take you away as well. I really don't even consider you my "senior" pastor anymore, but our "preaching" pastor only. Your salary I'm sure reflects a senior's pastor salary, but I'm not sure I believe that's fair now either. And now with your participation this Sunday in the marathon, you're even giving up your preaching responsibility. You suggested to us last Sunday that if you don't or can't run in the Child Share marathon, that you can still support it monetarily. Well, you should be doing it that way instead of being absent from your job. If you absolutely want to run to raise money, then still get the sponsors but run it by yourself or with a few others on Saturday! What little time you give PazNaz anymore, you should keep your few commitments.
2. I've heard that Pastor Joe Halbert is also shirking his responsibilities at the Valley Center church to run the marathon. Isn't he considered the preaching pastor over there? Wow. Now we have two pastors that are not setting a very good example to our congregants, that taking part in something other than their primary job is an okay thing to do on a Sunday morning. And then you talk from time to time about our numbers and maybe our lack of participation, faithfulness and commitment to our own church and its ministries? Can you blame our people for choosing other things to do on a Sunday morning when some of our own leadership does, too? Isn't there a spaghetti luncheon fundraiser this Sunday after church to help support one of our ministries? Everyone will no doubt be eating lunch somewhere after church. That's a simple ministry fundraiser to participate in... instead of spending money at Isalnds, give it to one of our ministries! So I guess neither you or Joe will be a part of supporting that ministry, huh? I hope you don't expect other staff members to support one of yours (or his) ministry opportunities if you don't support theirs. I've even heard that there may be a small contingency from the Valley Center church that wants to come over to PazNaz from Covina in order to support the spaghetti luncheon fundraiser! Wow. They've got better commitment than some of our pastoral staff! They're attending their own church and then coming over to PazNaz just to eat lunch so that they can support their larger church family! Will either your family and/or Joe's family also be absent so that they can support their husband and father?
3. Then I've also heard that our youth pastor, Keegan Lenker, is going to be out of town over the weekend to attend some of the March Madness NCAA Basketball games up north. Here we see another example of giving more commitment to a sport over being in God's house and in Chrisitan fellowship that the Bible tells us we should make a priority. Okay, so I know he could be taking some of his vacation time, and he is allowed to do whatever he wants with it, and if that's the case, okay. But if it's just for the weekend and he'll be back next week to do his job, what does that say to be allowed to be gone on a Sunday just to attend a sporting event over ministering to the youth of our church? Go on a Friday or Saturday, but be back for his Sunday morning responsibilities with his youth group. What if all of his volunteer staff decided to do the same? Who would be left to minister to our youth? Let him not complain if his ministry's attendance begins to fade because they're following their pastor's example to put a sport (or any other event) over being in God's house for teaching and fellowship!
How strongly does this speak to our congregation when three of our pastors this Sunday (and that's all that I've heard of) will find other opportunities and set them as their priorities to participate in rather than be in church, doing their jobs that we are paying them to do? The next time I hear you or them talk about the lack of commitment of our people for events or ministry offerings within our own church, my thoughts will be saying "hypocrisy"! If you want to set an example for First Church, set a good one. I can't blame friends who, though making me very disappointed, choose to attend their child's sports events on Sunday mornings rather than be in church. Some of them are just following the examples set before them in their growing up years, albeit not a good example. If their parents didn't give church a priority for them then, why should they think it should be a priority now? And when their children grow up and decide that church is just another option, and maybe not the most fun one over the others available, why should they be disappointed when they fall away from the church eventually because they didn't give God priority? If there is another activity taking place on a Sunday morning that would mean not being able to attend, worship, and/or serve in my regular capacity, that invite or event will be graciously turned down, or if necessary, we would still attend but arrive after we have attended church.
Just think about his as you are away from your congregation this Sunday and not standing in the pulpit preaching, not doing what you are paid to be doing, not being seen around campus, now even less than usual.
I guess I shouldn't be suprised if any of the other pastoral staff don't support some of the other ministry opportunities made available if the "senior" pastor doesn't support some of them either. Sometimes I've noticed that it is other pastoral staff that I see supporting a ministry event, possibly in your absence or just because they feel it's a priority, than I see you there supporting it because your other non-PazNaz commitments have taken priority. Do you let your staff pick and choose what they wish to support outside of their specific ministry? I hope you don't put a guilt trip on them if they don't support specific opportunities when you don't always give the best example in what to support and what not to support. I know you or them can't support, and shouldn't be expected to support, every ministry's offerings, programs, or events. But I do think you should give better consideration to what you make your priority, and that of your staff as well since they are in the position of setting an example for our congregants. Don't demand on your staff or their families, as well as your congregants, what you can't set an example for yourself. Remember what we are paying you for and at least give those responsibilities priority!
-- A disappointed long-time faithful church member
I want to start by saying that I agree with some of the concerns expressed. I believe regular participation is not only helpful but necessary in the life of beleivers. (And not just because I'm a pastor). I too am very concerned about making worship a priority for my family. As our kids have come through youth athletics we have said "no" to their participation in various sports or other activities that would require that they miss church on Sunday for any extended period of time. As churches we've created Saturday night or early morning services to try and help families work around occassional conflicts. But in a world where the culture no longer holds Sunday mornings sacred, it is a challenge for people to make regular worship attendance a priority in ways that my parents and grandparents did not face.
Just as a point of defense, the church does give me six Sundays a year that I can be gone (four for vacation and two to speak in other places). In six full years at PazNaz I have yet to use all six. I looked back through my calendar and in six years (309 Sundays) I have taken 9 vacation Sundays and 8 non-PazNaz travel, conference, or outside speaking Sundays (and one other marathon Sunday).
Nevertheless, I will admit having an inner twinge of a question about whether or not to run in the marathon or not. (This will be my second time in three years running for Child SHARE). In the end, I agreed to participate for two reasons. (Other than wanting to stay in shape).
The first is my taking quite literally James 1:27, "Religion that is pure and undeflied before God, the Father, is this: to care for orphans, and widows in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained from the world." The fact that five households this year from PazNaz are going through the process of becoming foster parents in order to literally care of the orphans in our area is one of the things I am most proud of today. Our family cannot currently open our home in this way, so the least I can do is sweat and raise resources for those who can. I believe I am being as honest as I know how to be when I say that I see what I am trying to accomplish and embody this weekend as (from James' point of view) a purer form of religion than preaching. (At least for one week). If I thought having every member at PazNaz run the marathon would get every orphan in LA a Christian home,(and it were physcially possible, and I wouldn't get 50 letters like this one), I would move that the entire church body take this coming Sunday off and run rather than have another weekend of worship and Sunday school. Not because worship, praise, and preaching isn't critical. It is. But if James is right, taking a week off so that every orphan in Los Angeles would find a home might be the purest form of worship we could do to glorify God's name.
Second, in some ways the decision to run this weekend reflects my changing view of ministry. I am increasingly convinced that Paul is correct when he writes that, "Christ himself gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the pastors and teachers, to equip his people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up..." (Eph. 4:11-12). The primary call for those of us who are pastors is therefore to equip the saints for service as the Body of Christ. Another way I might say it is that my role is not to help PazNaz "do" church as much as it is to help us "be" the church.
For me, apart from the personal attacks, the most troubling part of the letter is the internal focus. I hope what I'm doing as a pastor is teaching people to be the church and not just do church week after week. The goal of the church and the staff is not to create programs to see how many people we can get on campus. Whatever we do as the church is to help us figure out how to be the church in the world. So again, if I thought being the church this Sunday meant that every member ought to take a week off from doing church, I'd be the first one to say "go for it." Hopefully the two aren't mutually exclusive. Hopefully when we gather to do church, we are also being the church.
I was told this week about a lay person at PazNaz who attends activities, bible studies, and services when they can, but has made a commitment to go each Sunday morning and "bring the church" to a person who cannot, for a number of reasons, attend a worship service. I don't know how you feel about that, but I find that more Christian than having perfect worship attendance.
Over the last couple of months the church board has spent time reflecting with me and evaluating the last six years at the church. I am so thankful for their leadership. To a person, their concern in our discussions has been about how my family and I have been able to handle the double-duty that I have been doing these last two years between the church and the university.
Nearly every one of them remarked how thankful they are that God has made it possible that through the multiple venues of writing, speaking, teaching, radio, and internet, and through my continued leadership at the church, APU, in the denomination, and in the community, that the ministry of PazNaz is being expanded far beyond the walls of the church. It certainly does mean that I have been stretched in many different directions. But I am really thankful that unanimously the vision of the church's leadership thus far has not been just focused what is going on within the boundaries of the church campus but how far the reach of the church is extending. They recognize that in being a blessing, the church itself is also being blessed.
Most particularly, the letter reminds me of how truly thankful I am for the gift from God's people to be supported in fulltime ministry. The generosity of God's people has made the entire history and welfare of my family system possible. Nevertheless, like Paul in 1 Corinthians 9, it is my hope that someday I can refuse pay from the people of God. Having been raised in a family of ministers, litte about our lives has been kept secret. Especially in the area of finances, I work at being as transparent as possible.
My positions at the church and at APU have truly been a gift to me and to our family. Even though I didn't accept a full dean's salary, my role at the school has allowed me to take a 30% reduction in salary at the church and then give 20% back. God has certainly adding blessing by opening the door for our four kids to get tuition remission to college. The reciprocal privileges through the Council of Christian Colleges and Universities is making it possible for Caleb to go to Point Loma next year.
I got a chance last year to spend some time with Rick Warren. One of the ways I would like to be like Rick is to be free to pastor without being paid by the church. I don't know if it will ever happen, but with God and Dave Ramsey's help, it is my long term goal to continue reducing my salary at the church - or at least match what I get with what I give back - so that we can keep putting more resources into extending ministry and so that, along with Paul I can say, "I belong to no one but choose to be a slave to everyone."
Anyways... To the one who wrote the letter. I apologize that my running this weekend caused you offense. I really am just hoping to help some foster kids and be a healthier pastor. I promise - if I can still walk - to be back in the pulpit next week.